December 1, 2014
its been super rough in the mission. i feel like God is just testing me. i know i'm not a bad missionary. i work hard. i talk to everyone i get the chance to. i am good at working with the members. i know the doctrine. but i have been having a really tough time with this area. its just beating me up. no matter what i do it just feels wrong. and whenever we start finding people to teach everyone just drops off the face of the earth. when we find a less active, one out of the 600 on our roster, they have moved but for whatever reason, no one has kept a good record of that. its annoying but i think the lord is just testing me to see if i'm going to slow down or if i'm going to keep moving forward.